Ahhh! I look like a slacker! Seriously, I have not applied my blog work to here recently! Let's all laugh at me!! But, I have been writing! So, even though I did not update it in a while, here goes! I will be putting on what I have written and on the days I wrote them. In the order that they were written.
Just a small note. Some times I will be in thought and not come on the computer, I will either write how I am feeling in my note book or journal. So, all this junk then has to be typed and added. SOOOO this is the deal as to why I have not been posting.
Call it procrastination. Call it laziness. I do not care what you call it, but call it the way I work! Yeah, I said it. The way I work. Let's just go with that one!
~ So disappointed on so many different Levels... ~
Two days after Christmas and only now, I feel as I can talk about this. Christmas in general was ok. On my birthday the 23rd, My mom took my kids, my nephews, my niece, herself and I to a hotel in Carmel. The reason being she wanted to spend the next day with my Grandma whom lives in Carmel and she was not sure how the weather was going to be. And she wanted to be nice and have us go some where. There had been plans for us to go to Florida, however she had changed them due to the lack of money. It was going to be a Christmas present to everyone. So, she wanted us just to get away, even if it was some where not so far away.
That was good. We had a nice time. We went shopping and in the morning the hotel had a giant breakfast we all partook in. And the next day, we got present ready for my grandma. Then we drove to her place to spend time with her. She is in a wheelchair due to both of her legs being amputated. And, it had been a while since I had seen her. It is not that I do not want to see her, because I do. It is just that I have the girls all the time and they like to run around and do as kids like to do. And she has a LOT of little things for them to get into and break. So, I do not get to see her as much as I would like. I know she would like to see the kids more as well.
We came home late that evening. And I had called my ex to see if he was indeed coming over to see the kids on Christmas. Calling him was not something I wanted to do. It was more of a duty. Since my kids had not seen him in over 2 months, except for a week before Christmas when he came over. Boy, was that a fiasco! With his ex girlfriend calling him on his cell phone and he giving me the phone telling me to tell her that I was with him again. I took the phone and said, "He wants me to tell you that we are back together, but I can not lie. And I would never take him back ever again!" The girl was crying. And get this people he is so rude to his ex she is in a wheelchair and he treats her like dirt!
So, she hung up. Of course she called again. And again. And he decided to leave and give me his prepaid phone so, she could never call him again. And call she did. A lot. I told her everything about him. All she could say was, "I didn't even know him." And I laughed and said, "Yeah, you were with him like what.. a whole month? I was with him for almost 6 years ...
Yet, another birthday. I am 28 this time! I feel old. Very old. Yet, another birthday cheated. LOL! Seriously, I am not all about gifts and stuff, and it is a good thing I am not. IF I had been I might feel sad. Yes, many of my friends and family over looked me in giving me stuff for my b day. The reason usually falls into the 2 categories:
1. I did not have enough money to buy you a gift, I spent all my money on buying stuff for other people on Christmas.
(or)
2. Here is your birthday/Christmas present.
Hmmmm.
LOL! I guess I am usually a convenience to those that wish to buy me stuff, I am like killing 2 birds with one stone... OH WELL!
It was horrid none the less and not because of the presents issue. I would not care if I ever got another present again. I like them, but I try to realize it is all material and try to look toward the things that matter.
But, I can not believe I am 28. It does not feel right. I do not feel as old as I am....
